Lord, I Need You

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Contents

Preface
Your Father Loves You
Three Little Words
ABC's of Praise
Agape Test
Beginnings
The Bottom Line
The Choice
The Collection
Communion
For Esther
Excuses, Excuses
The Final Mercy
Growth
Glimpses of Hope
How Do You Do?
Icky Sicky
Mommy, It Hurts
January
Journey
The last Journey Home
Life
Lord, I Need You
Love
The Answering Machine
Oh, God
Prayer
God's Promises
Questions
Reunion
Romans 1-8
Tears
Too Soon
Time
The Water
A Wedding Prayer
Who Do You See In Me?

Oh, God

 

Oh God, my God, it hurts so bad
The wrenching agony that fills my breast
My heart ripped in two,
Broken in love for my child.

Oh God, my God, I can't bear the pain
My heart, once to merry and full,
Now choking from depths unimagined
Spilling over with helplessness, anger, love.

Oh God, my God, this is my child!
Once nursed, nurtured, loved,
Blossoming, a radiant flower.
Once a kiss would make the ouchies better.
Oh, that it could be me instead!

Oh God, my God, the path she has traveled
Oh that it were mine
If I could only have her once again
Running, laughing, cuddling, whole again.

Oh God, my God, the torrents of tears I have shed
Leaving me spent and numb,
A yawning chasm in the depths of my pain.
Day blends into night, an endless tunnel.

Oh God, my God, that I could but take away
The hurt and the pain
What I would give for her life
That I could take her place.

Oh God, my God, to think I was dying in my sins
With eternal torment my due.
But you have loved me
With an overwhelming love.
You died for me, taking my place.

Oh, the pain you must have endured
As you atoned upon the cross
Carrying the sin of all
Billions upon billions through the millennia
Providing the only exit from the road to hell.

Oh God, my God, the suffering my child bears,
The twisting, gnawing pain of my broken heart
They cannot be measured.
Yet it is but a drop in your ocean of love.

You endured the cross, the shame,
The separation,
So that we might live forever with you,
Pain-free, suffering no more.
Whole, in body, soul, and spirit.
Blossoming as we never could on this sinful earth.

Lord, you know our pain. You love us.
Lord, help us find peace in you,
Comfort from you.

Help me to internalize
And know with certainty that
"It will be worth it all
when we see Jesus."
Copyright 1997 by Judith E. Garling

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